Well, after giving some deep thought about this one.
I hate that I never stood up for myself in my life, said what I needed to say. I hate that I wouldn't or couldn't do that for myself for my life may have been easier in the long run. I hate that I was more worried of how things might affect other people than how it could have helped me. I hate that I was so meek and afraid and controlled to find my voice and save myself.